Shoulda, Coulda, Woulda

I have had this website since 2019 and I am so disappointed that I still have this whole website this to get down. I always feel like I don't have time for it, but yet I can scroll through my phone and watch a bunch of Reels or see what other people are doing in their lives. I think what most of it boils down to the fear of me not being good at this , or feeling like this web page won't be as good as the next guy/gal's. I really have to face the truth and move forward with this and get to f****n work! Imagine, ifI had just kept at least writing on here since that time, how far along would I be already?! With all the shoulda, coulda, and woulda's I let stand in my way or hover over me, now I am behind in a sense. I have had to convince my hubby to keep this website up all these years even when he lost his job through Covid and all these other financial woes. Bless his heart for being so supportive though. I keep promising him I will start writing on here more and build something from this. I told myself when my son goes to daycare I will spend time building this website and it has been since August 2021, and I still have yet to start a damn thing in here. Every time I have time I would just rather get housework done because it piles up so fast, but then cooking, and laundry, mom guilt get in the way and here I go again with another damn excuse as to why I "don't have time" or why "I can't". I am getting older and I don't always want to be this person that has excuses to not do things I am passionate about. I am a very passionate person and I feel like I am not letting what I need out. What is my end goal? I still don't know exactly, but I do know my WHY. I wanted this website to share some personal stories to help others that may have been or going through similar things. I want to share with people my recipes. I want to share with people a glimpse of my lifestyle. Whether its up to par with someone else's or not is not what I care about its letting someone out that that can relate to me at all know that we are different but sometimes so much the same. We are human beings , we grieve, we laugh, love, cry, fall, get back up. I get bored so this website is suppose to be a little bit about everything. This was originally was suppose to be a website for me and my daughter because we had our own YouTube Channel , but she is all grown up now and I am honestly contemplating changing the name to something different now because its not me and her anymore. We shall see though.... Anywho, I just wanted to get this out there. I have been studying more about websites and making reels and such , so all that is left to do is practice. There is only so much studying you can do to learn, you eventually have to get out and actually do it on your own, right?